I can't stop thinking about this song...

Breathe
by Taylor Swift and Colbie Caillat


I see your face in my mind as I drive away,Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.People are people,And sometimes we change our minds.But it’s killing me to see you go after all this time.

Mmm mmm mmmMmm mmm mmm mmm mmmMmm mmm mmmMmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie,It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see.Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down,Now I don’t know what to be without you around.

And we know it’s never simple,Never easy.Never a clean break, no one here to save me.You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,And I can’t,Breathe,Without you,But I have to,Breathe,Without you,But I have to.

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.But people are people,And sometimes it doesn’t work out,Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.

And we know it’s never simple,Never easy.Never a clean break, no one here to save me.You’re the only thing I know like the back of my hand,And I can’t,Breathe,Without you,But I have to,Breathe,Without you,But I have to.

It’s two a.m.Feelin' like I just lost a friend.Hope you know it’s not easy,Easy for me.
It’s two a.m.Feelin’ like I just lost a friend.Hope you know this ain’t easy,Easy for me.

And we know it’s never simple,Never easy.Never a clean break, no one here to save me.Ohhh
I can’t,Breathe,Without you,But I have to,Breathe,Without you,But I have to.

Sorry (oh) Sorry (mmm)Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)Sorry (eh eh) Sorry (mmm)Sorry

© SONY/ATV SONGS D/B/A TREE PUBG CO; TAYLOR SWIFT PUB DESIGNEE


You would have to hear this song to understand how beautiful is. Olivia bought Taylor Swift's most recent CD on Saturday. She asked if we could play the CD on the way home. I halfway listened to the songs as I was driving until this one came on. The song finished and I was overwhelmed. I had to play it again. I probably listened to this song 20 times that night.

I know it's supposed to be a break-up song, but for some reason I kept thinking about Missy. It's like the song says..."I can't breathe without you but I have to." When I first realized that she was dead it was like the air had been sucked out of me. I couldn't breathe. Each day since the accident I have been teaching myself to breathe again. I never had time to shut down, and honestly...I never wanted to shut down. My instinct was to keep pushing myself each day to get up, get the kids ready for school, get myself ready for school and whatever else the day had to offer me. I know without a doubt that what I was doing was exactly what Missy would want and expect me to do.

Now don't get me wrong...I allowed myself time to grieve when I needed to. I just grieved more internally. I wasn't hiding it. I just was handling it all in my own stride. Today, I am better. The "oxygen tank" has been removed and I am breathing on my own... If hope you get a chance to listen to this song.