Did you miss me?
I must first apologize for my long absence. I have just been very busy (and maybe a wee bit selfish) the last couple of months.
Well, three months at work and going strong! I really enjoy my job. I don't wake up dreading the day ahead and I don't stare at the clock wondering why 4:30 p.m. cannot come earlier in the day. It has a few drawbacks, but I refuse to even go there because anyone that knows me already knows what I will say. I am beginning to develop some nice friendships there. It will take me a long while to feel comfortable. I would say my comfort level is somewhere between laying on a bed of nails and that itch you get on the bottom of your right foot while driving in a pair of laced up boots! You all know what I am talking about.
I really need to decorate my office it's kind of dreary, aside from the Marilyn Monroe picture that I received from my mom and Janice. The guys like it a lot! I just have to figure out what I want on the other 3 walls.
I pretty much understand what my job is all about now and that is a huge relief. I hate feeling ignorant. I still have a lot of "blond moments," but everyone seems to ignore them.
The next exciting this is that my "little sis" is knocked up!!!! I'm going to be an auntie to twins!! I am so excited and I can't wait to spoil them rotten. Hopefully we will find out what they are by the end of the month so the spoiling can begin. Sarah looks beautiful and I am always happy to rub the belly!!! She and Aaron are going to be phenomenal parents. Sarah's had a lot of practice with my munchkins.
Speaking of my munchkins...
Gavin and Livvy were baptized on Sunday at church. I have been excited for this day for some time. I wasn't prepared for the emotions that I felt. I watched them walk into the baptistry and tears immediately filled my eyes. There wasn't a Kleenex in sight. I wasn't the only one that was misty eyed!! It was so moving to watch my kids one at a time go under the water and resurface as a testimony to their faith. My only hope is that in this world, they never lose that faith. Sometimes it is the only thing we have to hold on to.
I will admit for the last month I have been very selfish. I spent every free moment I had reading. I truly enjoy reading. It is a hobby I don't get to indulge in too much. I started reading the Twilight series and was so captivated by the story that I read the whole series in a month. It seemed like everyone I knew had read it and I was out of the loop (thanks Dana and Sarah!!). It was one of those stories that begs you to keep reading and you just can't pull yourself away. I read until my eyes blurred sometimes and loved every minute of it. I am thankful that I read it because it awakened something in me that I thought had vanished years ago. It made me want to write again. I haven't written anything since my kids were born. It's not that I haven't wanted to, but I just honestly couldn't find the time. I never claimed to be a good writer, but I just enjoyed the art of writing. There is something about pouring your heart out on paper that makes you feel so many different emotions. I haven't written anything yet, but it made me want to write. It's like a craving now. I just need a story to tell. That's the hard part, finding something to write about. I live a fairly uneventful life, which makes it hard to draw from personal experience. I also lack the creativity to just think up some story that is worth telling.
I love to read Nicholas Sparks books. He is a great story teller. He is so good about pulling emotions out of his readers. His books always make me cry. Stephenie Meyer wrote Twilight based on a dream she had one night. I am not blessed with that kind of creativity. I guess I write better with prompts. I had a great English teacher in college. She had this ability to pull the creativity out of me. It was your typical English composition class, but she focused on creative writing rather than writing about books we read. I loved that class so much. I need to do some research on the Internet to find some writing prompts that appeal to me. I don't want to write a novel or anything like that. I just want to simply "get it out of my system." Don't get me wrong, it would be nice to be the next J.K. Rowlings or Stephenie Meyer, but that is not my goal. It would be so gratifying to write something that people couldn't stop reading. It's not even a money thing. It is just the desire to write something that special.
So there you have it folks. That's been the last two months for me in a nutshell. Of course, more than what I have written about has been going on, but then what would I have to write about next time?
