I'm baaacccckkk!!! Did ya miss me? I sure missed posting. I love that line from Dances with Wolves when Kevin Costner is talking to the skeleton. So much has been going on around here this past few weeks. It has been hard to keep up with everything.
Renee is finally back at home with the hubby and kids. We all miss her terribly. It is so difficult to have to say goodbye to her. I bawled like a baby the whole way home the night before she left. She was bawling too so I'm not the only softy here! I think saying goodbye to her is so difficult because she has stepped into an empty place in my life. She has stepped up into the position of a sister to me. That spot has been a big hole in my life for 10 long months. Saying goodbye to her is almost like saying goodbye to my sister again. There is nothing like the relationship you have with your sister!! There is only one person in the world who can understand what it was like growing up to be who you are. A sister! I have known Renee for ten years, but I didn't really get a chance to get to know her until I visited her in March of this year. She's a beautiful and sweet lady and I have grown to love her and her family dearly. No one can EVER replace Missy as my sister, but it is so great to have a "sis" again. Love ya Nay!!
Another great thing in my life is my girlfriends!! This group of very special friends (including my moms) fill my heart in a way no other people can. I just want you ALL to know how special you are to me. I read this card about girlfriends while I was waiting at Cracker Barrel the other day. I can't remember everything it said but it was so true. I will have to find the quote and share it with you. One of my girlfriends and I were chatting one day back in January after Missy's death. I told her about how weird it feels to lose a sister and how alone and empty it feels sometimes. It felt like I had this huge hole in my heart. She told me that's when I should rely on my girlfriends. She said that my girlfriends were like pebbles trying to fill that boulder sized hole in my heart. She was right! I've realized since then that my girlfriends are not pebbles. They are the most awe inspiring diamonds that have gradually filled my emptiness.
To ALL of my girlfriends...I love you all and I hope you know what extraordinary women you are!!! That is definitely something I am thankful for this year! Hope you all have a beautiful day!
4 comments:
Being an only child, I've never understood the concept of a sister or a brother, as the concept of being an only child is not understood. I know you and Missy were close, and it has warmed my heart to watch as your friends and extended family have huddled themselves around you. I love them for that! And I love you!
P.S. - that's one of our favorite lines too. And the 'put that in your book' one :D
Pebbles? Do I look like a pebble? I may not be the boulder, I think I look more like a fat river stone that has gathered so much debris and moss on it that it's no longer smooth and shiny, but lumpy and kinda moldy. But this lumpy, moldy stone has a big old spot in it's heart, mind and soul that has been filled by a spunky, sometimes blond now a red-headed shiny beacon of love and friendship. See I do have other siblings (which we will not discuss here :)), and have had many friends. But have never had a friend that has accepted me for all my lumps and bumps, big mouth unconventional way of showing affection than my shiny little beacon! And if anyone says any different as the little hamster says "I shall chew their faces off!"
LOL!!! It was meant as a compliment! I wouldn't change a thing!! :)
Mom...see what I have to put up with? :)
Are you hungry???
Starvin!!!
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